Monday, December 21, 2015

the day I {almost} lost my joy

the day I {almost} lost my joy - my road trip to the Magnolia Market at the Silos
I woke up Saturday morning with a song in my heart and a skip in my step!  For the past few days, the kids and I had been talking about driving to Waco for a little day trip.  I had desperately been wanting to go see Chip and Joanna's new Magnolia Market at the Silos and the kids agreed to go, as long as they could have a "real" Dr. Pepper (you know, the ones made with pure cane sugar) from the Dr. Pepper Museum.  I agreed!  A whole day of just me and the kids with no agenda other than having fun?  Yes, please!

Our elves, Waldo and Joy, have been bringing the kiddos Kindness Challenges and this day was no different.  They overheard us talking about our road trip so they challenged us to spread Christmas cheer by passing out candy to every person we saw working.  They want us to have fun but also look around and appreciate how hard people work during the holidays.
Elf on the Shelf Kindness Challenge #unshelfyoelf2015
Our bag of candy was packed and I had started to get ready.  This is where it went downhill - fast...

Hope was sick towards the end of last week and started complaining about not feeling well.  The last thing I wanted was to take her with me and for her to get sick and not be close to home.  That's ok, I thought - I've still got the bigs!  Next, Holden bailed - "mom, if Hope doesn't have to go, do I?!".  UGH!  Well, of course not!  Who wants to drag kids on a 3+ hour road trip if they really don't want to be there?!  And, before Colby could tell me he really didn't want to go either, I let him off the hook.

Sad, upset, disappointed, yes, even pissed (I might have even shot off a snarky text to a friend...).  I was feeling all.the.rotten.things.  I fully admit - I'm not good with disappointment.  I love to look forward to things!  I really love to look forward to things when I have friends or family to share them with.  In my current state, this felt like an attack - like no one wanted to spend time with me doing something that I was excited about. (Hang with me - I'll make an exit from my pity party soon!)

I had a choice to make.  I could either stay home and get more upset with my family or I could go by myself.  It wasn't a hard choice to make.  I grabbed my purse and keys and with quick (looking back, a little too quick!) goodbyes, I was gone.

I listen to KSBJ, a Christian radio station based out of Houston, and they have something called the Joy Challenge.  I hadn't even made it out of our driveway before someone came on talking about choosing joy.
KSBJ I chose joy
OK, God, you have my attention loud and clear.  The sharp edges of my heart were starting to soften (just a little!).

Have I mentioned how absolutely beautiful of a day this was?  The sun was shining and there wasn't a cloud in the sky.  I could feel the warmth of the day melting away my crummy attitude.

The first song they played after the joy segment happened to be my favorite Christmas song - Sleigh Ride.  And, I heard it no less than five more times throughout the day.  Each time bringing a smile to my face.

So, just to recap: I left my house pissed, only to be reminded that it was up to me to choose joy.  I was blessed with an absolutely amazing day AND my favorite Christmas song was playing.  And, this was only about two minutes in to my road trip!  My day was looking up already!

I drove ninety miles north with no one to talk to but plenty of things to think about.  I was upset that no one wanted to spend time with me but God used this to show me He was feeling the same way about me.  He wanted a day (actually, He wants all my days!) where my focus was HIM, where I shared moments with HIM, talked to HIM.  He wants the same things I want - why couldn't I see that?!

I decided to choose joy!

The kids had been challenged to look beyond themselves and see others as their kindness challenge.  I was so caught up in "me" that I completely overlooked the terrible example I was setting.  This was going to change.  Today was all about seeing things through the eyes of others.
the day I {almost} lost my joy - my road trip to the Magnolia Market at the Silos
I love Chip and Joanna Gaines.  I'm super behind on watching the current season of Fixer Upper but I don't have to stay caught up on the show to see how they "get it".  Joanna has dreams and she's not afraid to chase them.  Who would have ever seen these silos and thought, I see something great here?  It's like how God sees us.  We beat ourselves up on a daily basis when all He sees is greatness.
the day I {almost} lost my joy - my road trip to the Magnolia Market at the Silos
the day I {almost} lost my joy - my road trip to the Magnolia Market at the Silos #magnoliawelcome
the day I {almost} lost my joy - my road trip to the Magnolia Market at the Silos
 The marketplace is filled with simple decorations.  I love all the little attention to detail!
the day I {almost} lost my joy - my road trip to the Magnolia Market at the Silos
These cotton wreaths reminded me of my friend, Kim!
the day I {almost} lost my joy - my road trip to the Magnolia Market at the Silos 
the day I {almost} lost my joy - my road trip to the Magnolia Market at the Silos
the day I {almost} lost my joy - my road trip to the Magnolia Market at the Silos
 I just HAD to have this pillow!  :)
the day I {almost} lost my joy - my road trip to the Magnolia Market at the Silos
I love these little matchbox mice!  As a little girl, I can remember using matchboxes as beds for little animals I would make!  I couldn't resist so I bought the Little Sisters mice for Colby to give Holden and Hope for Christmas.  I hope they love them as much as I did!
the day I {almost} lost my joy - my road trip to the Magnolia Market at the Silos
the day I {almost} lost my joy - my road trip to the Magnolia Market at the Silos
 Look at this visual reminder!  Choose JOY!!!
the day I {almost} lost my joy - my road trip to the Magnolia Market at the Silos
 And, don't forget to have fun!  :)
the day I {almost} lost my joy - my road trip to the Magnolia Market at the Silos
As I was standing in line waiting to pay, I looked up and was mesmerized by the light that was coming in from the top of the silos.  It was so beautiful!
the day I {almost} lost my joy - my road trip to the Magnolia Market at the Silos
And, when I got to the cash register, I started to work on our kindness challenge.  I did feel a little silly doing this without the kids with me but the smiles I received from the workers were priceless!  They were so excited!  It was really cute to see.
the day I {almost} lost my joy - my road trip to the Magnolia Market at the Silos
 I ventured outside to find more greatness!
the day I {almost} lost my joy - my road trip to the Magnolia Market at the Silos
There is an on-site garden run by the local group World Hunger Relief.
the day I {almost} lost my joy - my road trip to the Magnolia Market at the Silos
the day I {almost} lost my joy - my road trip to the Magnolia Market at the Silos
the day I {almost} lost my joy - my road trip to the Magnolia Market at the Silos
the day I {almost} lost my joy - my road trip to the Magnolia Market at the Silos
 The Silos also have food trucks and plenty of picnic tables to just sit and enjoy.
the day I {almost} lost my joy - my road trip to the Magnolia Market at the Silos
the day I {almost} lost my joy - my road trip to the Magnolia Market at the Silos
Or, bring a blanket and enjoy a picnic on the lawn!
the day I {almost} lost my joy - my road trip to the Magnolia Market at the Silos
the day I {almost} lost my joy - my road trip to the Magnolia Market at the Silos
Here was the Santa I had wanted the kids to take their picture with.  And, then I thought, what's stopping ME from getting my picture made with him?!  Plus, I knew the kids would get a kick out of seeing me with Santa!
the day I {almost} lost my joy - my road trip to the Magnolia Market at the Silos #magnoliamarket
So, I stood in line to have my picture made with Santa.  Best part?  I was able to share some candy with him!  When he asked me what I wanted for Christmas, it was easy to say, "I have everything I need!"
the day I {almost} lost my joy - my road trip to the Magnolia Market at the Silos
As I wrapped up my time at the silos, I was reminded by my kiddos "deal".  They would come with me as long as they got to have a "real" Dr. Pepper.
the day I {almost} lost my joy - my road trip to Waco - the Dr. Pepper Museum
 Guess what happened to be just a block from the silos?  Yep, the Dr. Pepper Museum!
the day I {almost} lost my joy - my road trip to Waco - the Dr. Pepper Museum
I ran in and grabbed a 4-pack.  I knew they would love this!
the day I {almost} lost my joy - my road trip to Waco - Buzzard Billy's
Before I headed home, I grabbed a late lunch at Buzzard Billy's (thanks to a recommendation from my friend, Michele!).  It has a patio overlooking the Brazos River and today was the absolute best day to enjoy it!  Normally I would feel a little self conscious sitting there eating all alone.  But, not today!  I was reminded that we are never truly alone.  God is with us - through good and bad, ups and downs, and even when no one else wants to road trip with you!  ;)
the day I {almost} lost my joy - my road trip to Waco - Buzzard Billy's
the day I {almost} lost my joy - my road trip to Waco - Buzzard Billy's
Just in case you are wondering, I had the catfish from the kids menu and it was fabulous!
the day I {almost} lost my joy - my road trip to Waco - Buzzard Billy's
I was able to leave the waitress a larger tip than usual and included the rest of the candy from our challenge!

I made the hour and a half drive home and was a better mom/wife for having had those six plus hours alone.  I was reminded that in order to teach our children to be less selfish, I had to set a better example.  I chose joy!
the day I {almost} lost my joy
And, yes, they were super excited with their soda surprise!
Elf on the Shelf Kindness Challenge #unshelfyoelf2015
Day 19 challenge complete! :)

This day might not have gone the way I expected it to, but it went exactly how it should! How many disappointments have I missed that could have turned out amazing?

Wishing you a JOY filled Christmas week!

Gig 'em and God bless! 
Holly

36 comments:

  1. Sorry about the kids not wanting to come, but glad it came together! We are doing a bit of a kindness challenge this week, too. However, I must say that I am a bit jealous of your trip to Magnolia. We are too far away for any such trip. Sigh. At least, I can check out your pictures and feel like I was there :) Thanks for sharing!

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    1. Thank you, Amanda! What started our rotten ended up being perfect! Wish you were closer! The silos were perfection!

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  2. Okay, it I 6:00 a.m..... Monday morning and I am sitting in bed bawling my eyes out at reading this. Can't even tell you why, except...I know all the feelings you expressed here so well. How many road trips I take by myself for the same reasons you shared. AND, amazing things happen when I do. How I feel afterwards is a reminder, again, like you shared how God want time with US. All the little signs you had that day to remind you that HE had this. Most of all, I love how you unselfishly thought about your little ones to bring them back their treats, gifts, etc. How you thought of others in sharing the candy and continuing on giving to others in spite of how you started out feeling. Many people would have stayed home and continued in their misery. I am so glad you did this and shared with your readers Holly. This is what the season is all about. Truly. This began my day perfectly and it makes me want to get up and shout for J O Y! Merry Christmas and one of these days I am going to give you a Big. Fat. HUG in person. Love this!

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    1. We are so alike, friend! I look forward to the day I get that Big.Fat.HUG! For now I send virtual hugs. I feel your feelings and walk in your shoes. Let's choose joy! Merry Christmas and thank you for your sweet words. As always, they made my day!

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  3. God will never cease to give us what we need...I'm glad you had such a great time and discovered more of His goodness along the way.

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    1. It is so true, Kristy, yet so easy to forget. His reminder Saturday was much needed and appreciated! So glad you stopped by. Merry Christmas!

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  4. I'll go with you anywhere :) So feeling all these feels in my current season. Always with you in trying to choose the good things, sister. I love you.

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    1. I know you will, friend! Road trip soon?! I don't care where - as long as we are together! Miss you more than you can possibly imagine! A road trip to find all the good things?! Yes, please!

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  5. I LOVED YOUR POST TODAY! This reminds me that sometimes things don't go as planned and its ok to go alone. As we are never truly ALONE! There have been times I have wanted to venture to one of our small little towns and take in the square and enjoy it all and I don't have anyone to go with. My girls are grown and off living their own lives. Most of my friends work full time. I am so blessed to be able to still be at home and take care of our house and my husband. So I need to NOT be afraid to take off and explore! Thank you Holly! Have a wonderful Day!

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    1. Sounds like you have a road trip in your future! It wasn't how I would have planned it, but it ended up being perfect! Thank you so much for stopping by and for your kind words! Wishing you a very Merry Christmas!

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  6. PS: Can I just say that I am SUPER jealous you went to the new Silos? OMGOODNESS I love Chip and Joanna and their show and I may or may not have ordered a 2 tier stand for myself for christmas and already wrapped it and placed it under the tree signed from Santa ;)

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    1. Haha! That's awesome! Santa always knows exactly what we want! ;) I came home with a large metal M, the Holly pillow, a few candle holders, and a gift for a friend! Definitely a successful trip!

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    2. Such a successful trip! Aaaaaahhhh! Love it! I loved that Holly pillow!

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  7. This my friend may just be the best post you have ever written! I am so proud of you. It was the most perfect day for a road trip to warm your spirits and renew your soul. Love you!

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    1. Thank you, friend! It really did end up being a close-to-perfect day! Love you too!

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  8. I migrated here from EmberGrey and I'm so so glad I did :) First of all, I love Chip and JoJo! My husband and I watch Fixer Upper all the time and we're dying to visit the silos some day! Secondly, I love your attitude and voice! What a wonderful day for you: you found some joy, you held onto it, and you spread it around! I love that you're doing a winter challenge! So creative!

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    1. Hi, Audrey! I'm so glad you found me today! Thank you for your kind words! Posts like these are hard for me to write so it's always nice to know when others read and understand where you are coming from. Hope to see you back soon! Wishing you a very Merry Christmas (and I hope you get to visit the silos soon!)!

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  9. What an awesome post! It is so hard to choose joy when things do not go your way, but I believe that if you are patient, God will give you what you need, even if it is not what you initially wanted. It looks like you had an amazing day!

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    1. So, so, so very true, Mary! Had I stayed at home and pouted, I would have missed out on so much of the greatness that He had planned for me! I'm so glad you stopped by! Wishing you a very Merry Christmas!

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  10. Holly, what an awesome day!! You were able to have a wonderful day because you chose your attitude!! That place looks so cool. I would have road tripped with you if I were close :)

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    1. Thank you, Julie! I'm up for a road trip any time! ;)

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  11. I can relate to everything you said. I've had those days when things just don't seem to go as we plan. I mentioned it briefly in my birthday post. I was so disappointed when friends backed out on plans we had made weeks in advance and was left pretty much to do things on my own. One of my sons was home for the weekend and the two of us spent a day together which turned out to be very nice. The other days didn't go as I would have liked them to, but none the less I enjoyed my time of peace and solitude. I too had to let go and enjoy what God had placed before me. So glad your day went better than expected. Now, Chip and Joanna, I just love them! Totally didn't dawn on me that you were so close to them. I would love to meet them. They sweet and I hope you are having a great week!

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    1. You know what was one of the most eye opening things I've learned today after posting this? That I'm absolutely not alone in how I felt! Nearly every single person that has commented has mentioned knowing exactly how I was feeling. I was so nervous to hit publish because I thought, "no one is going to really get this" but how wrong I was! I'm sure I'll screw it up the next time I'm given this opportunity but I was happy I got it right this past weekend. And, aren't Chip and Joanna the best?! I was able to attend an event they held last year and I fell more in love with them after meeting them. I think they are the real deal!

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  12. So glad to hear you choose Joy :) But then again, I didn't doubt it for a second!
    It looks and sounds like an amazing trip to Magnolia Market! I would love to visit there some time! Merry Christmas to you and your family Holly!

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    1. It was up in the air for a while! ;) Merry Christmas to your beautiful family!

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  13. Sorry about that.
    Please keep your joy.

    Happy Christmas! :)

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    1. Thank you! It ended up being a great day! Merry Christmas!

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  14. What a miraculous day! Thanks for sharing!

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  15. You were blessed overall and so was I as I journeyed with you! See now...that adventure was my kind of day! I love doing those by-myself-things! You gave me some joy by you choosing joy! Thanks, Holly.
    May your Christmas be filled with more joy, ~ linda

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    1. Thank you, Linda, for your very kind words! I definitely will step out in faith a little easier next time! Thank you so much for stopping by! I hope you have a very Merry Christmas!

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  16. Oh have I had days start out like that too. God is so good at reminding us to change our thoughts! Thank you for sharing your trip and thoughts with us at Welcome Home Wednesdays!

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    1. Thank you, Tracy! I love when he gets our attention but it a loving way that makes us smile and totally get it! Thanks so much for stopping by! Hope you are having a great start to the new year!

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  17. Shelly shares this today and I'm so glad she did. I needed to read this today! Hope you have a very merry Christmas !

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